Beautiful Nightmares #1

                           Beautiful Nightmare 
                            -Lauren Hammond
#1:
   I happen to have a case of slugg head. I suppose I'm just feeling a little surreal. Fingers hovering over the keys, and it one of those times when I'm not sure how to say what i think I'm supposed to feel. Writing, its always supposed to come naturally you know?
Much easier than saying even a few words in front of a crowd, or even a select few people.
I'll start with one word. One word of more consequence than all that I've said so far.

Lets take a detour. 
Once when I younger, During mass, the priest gave a sermon on faith in God. And listened and tried to understand. He said, that when travesty strikes, we screech to the heavens "WHY?!" He said we can't question Gods motives. We can't even begin to understand them.
And I thought, "Well, yeah, because god's like this Merlin in a high tower, whereas we can't see a step ahead of our next spell- "
Repercussions, and consequences, and the Butterfly effect.
But in simple terms, I got the whole concept.
And at this particular point, I feel like I have way too many words in my head, Not like its going to explode, rather like they're deflating out of me 2 dozen at a go, and soon I'll be left with nothing to say again.

So for now, I'm going to side-step the "God" conversation, It will only mess my head up. Further. I should just get to it.